Childhood

I've noticed an odd behavior in myself over the past few months that is, to me at least, quite interesting. Whenever I become overwhelmed, depressed, or god forbid, suicidal, I consciously regress to my behavior around the age of seven. I suddenly become deeply fascinated with cartoons, especially Pokemon, I dig out all of my old toys, and I refuse to speak to anybody. With the benefit of hindsight, my behavior is amusing, if a little worrying, but I thought a bit on why I might do such things, and this is what I came up with:

1. My childhood was pretty fuckin' sweet
2. My adolescence is not
3. I try and emulate my childhood experience to be happy
4. It does not work
5. I go back to being adolescent
6. I get depressed
7. Cycle repeats indefinitely
   
8. eventually I have kids
9. I ruin their lives by reliving my childhood through them
10. they hate their childhood
11. they rebel in adolescence
12. They never go through the cycle
13. they become well adjusted members of society
14. I die poor and alone
15. I realize what I am thinking about
16. I get depressed
17. Cycle repeats