Missing You

I was looking at a picture of a friend of mine, when I suddenly realized just how much I missed her, it was similar to the feeling that I get when I contemplate the sheer size of the universe. I stared into her little pixel eyes, and felt the whole weight of the world crash down upon my soul, and the only way I could think of relieving it was through music.
Here are the top five songs that remind me of you:

1. Circles -Hollywood Undead
2. Archers -Brand New
3. See, I can get sexual too -Say Anything
4. Admit it -Say Anything
5. All I ever wanted -Basshunter
   

The last post

I just read what I wrote only a couple of seconds ago, and realized, maybe this is why I hate children so much?

Childhood

I've noticed an odd behavior in myself over the past few months that is, to me at least, quite interesting. Whenever I become overwhelmed, depressed, or god forbid, suicidal, I consciously regress to my behavior around the age of seven. I suddenly become deeply fascinated with cartoons, especially Pokemon, I dig out all of my old toys, and I refuse to speak to anybody. With the benefit of hindsight, my behavior is amusing, if a little worrying, but I thought a bit on why I might do such things, and this is what I came up with:

1. My childhood was pretty fuckin' sweet
2. My adolescence is not
3. I try and emulate my childhood experience to be happy
4. It does not work
5. I go back to being adolescent
6. I get depressed
7. Cycle repeats indefinitely
   
8. eventually I have kids
9. I ruin their lives by reliving my childhood through them
10. they hate their childhood
11. they rebel in adolescence
12. They never go through the cycle
13. they become well adjusted members of society
14. I die poor and alone
15. I realize what I am thinking about
16. I get depressed
17. Cycle repeats
    

Noses

Someone asked me an interesting question today; they asked me what it was I liked about her face. Now, immediately I came up with a Top Five list and I thought it would be fun to share. My list is actually just the Top Five things I love about girl faces.

1. Noses -Some girls have these little pointy noses that are just small and cute, and for some reason, visually amazing.
2. Eyes -I have a tendency to fall head over heels for anyone that I see wearing way, way too much eye makeup, its just my thing I guess.
3. Lips -Sort of like the noses, I love girls with little thin lips, lips that look like they are meant for long hours of talking rather than being vehicles for crappy lipstick
4. Framing -I love it when a perfect face is framed by locks of perfect hair, whether it be black, blond, pink, green, purple, red or any other color under the sun (especially the red variants ie: purple, pink)
5. Eyes again - this time specifically refering to color, girls all have brilliant eyes, I don't know what it is,but girls eye color is never boring, for us guys we just have dull flat tones, but girl eyes are all shimmering irridescants and pearly variations.
   

Valentine's Day

Or as it is now known: Singles Awareness Day (S.A.D.)

Why do people feel obliged to be happy on holidays? Valentine's day is a rather horrible holiday anyway, and when it rains all day, you're single, and broke, there is really not much to recommend it, but you aren't allowed, within the confines of polite society, to say "Fuck this day! I'm going to sulk and there's nothing you can do about it!"
The way I see it, any day that you feel good, and are in a celebratory mood should be a holiday, instead of having your happiness regulated by a calendar. Wouldn't it be great to just make a cake, put up streamers and give gifts on a completely random day? So far as I can tell, Valentine's day is just an excuse for people who have someone to feel that they are not a total failure, and everyone else can just suck it, which makes very little sense to me, unless you look at it from the standpoint of biology, rewarding those who are more likely to pass on their genes.
Anyway, enough of my rambling, and now for my Top Five "Nobody Loves You" songs:

1. Telescope Eyes -Eisley
2. Bones -The Killers
3. Carve Your Heart Out Yourself -Dashboard Confessional
4. So What -P!nk
5. Everything'll be alright (Will's Lullaby) -Joshua Radin
   

Simple things

I have recently come to truly appreciate the simple things in life. Most often I enjoy the grand sweeping plains, or mighty mountaintops, but although these are breath taking, they are hardly ordinary. I realized that things like lying on my bed, or a hot shower can be just as amazing as staring into the depths of the grand canyon when you stop taking them for granted. I still enjoy the bold strokes of beauty in life, but I think than now I can appreciate the little things better.
So, now on to my top five happy-dance songs of the last five minutes.

1. Safety dance -Men without hats
2. Road to nowhere -Talking heads
3. Tubthumping -Chumbawumba
4. Once in a lifetime -Talking heads
5. Whip it -Devo
   

Thoughts

I've decided that people talk way, way too much. By my estimate, ninety percent of peoples' conversations are pointless, shallow, and not worth having. If everyone spent the same amount of energy and time that they use for talking to think, maybe we would have solutions for the problems facing the world today. Periodically I lapse into days of silence, but I realized that this isn't constructive, so my idea was, why not just speak Spanish? That way, I learn the language, and only people who have something important enough to tell me, that they will translate it into another language will be able to communicate.
As a side note, I would like to ask the very small pool of people who read this blog to use the phrase "shut up" liberally, as it is not really offensive, and most of the time it is entirely appropriate. Taking the idea even further, take your friends camping, bring them out into the wilderness and make them just sit silently and listen, listen to what they are missing by talking on and on about nothing.
To conclude, please, think before you speak, and if you judge that it is not something that needs to be said, keep it to yourself. On that note, I leave you with my Top Five places to sit in silence.

1. The beach at Boliver mud flats.
2. At the top of "La Mitra" in the davis mountains.
3. By the river in Zilker park in Austin.
   
4. On the tall hill in herman park, by the amphitheater.
5. Any place with the right mixture of sun and grass.